My defining moment was when I knew I could no longer live with my fiance.
After a messy break-up (which unfortunately required some police intervention), I now sit in my bedroom, wondering how I can fill the void that sits in my stomach and marvel at how much my life has come to a standstill, since getting together with my ex-fiancee.
I feel stuck in a rut, like cattle that's told when to eat, when to move from one field to the next, when to take a shit.
Therefore I need to make a few changes in my life, and start being more honest with myself, especially when it comes to the kind of life I want to lead.
This won't be easy as whenever I tell relatives about the things I'd like to do, I usually get laughed at.
I suppose the one thing I really desire at the moment, is the freedom to express my true feelings, without fear of hurting other peoples feelings, and to explore my creativity.
This blogger site seemed like a good enough place to start, as I can remain anonymous and say whatever the hell I feel like.
I'm gonna stop here before I start talking too much shit, but before I do go, I just want to jot down all the things I can think of, that I'd like to do/try/attempt/cock up before I die:
- Milk a cow
- Grow my own veg
- Run a marathon
- Take a cow for a walk in London
- Convert my house into a nightclub
- Convert house into an art gallery
- Stay in a Hippy compound
- Paint really dull buildings in psychadelic designs/colours
- Invite Banksy round for tea & cake
I may just be a complete stranger to you, but I have to say - good for you having aspirations and making the decision to be more honest with yourself! It'll have great results in the end, you'll see :)
ReplyDeleteDon't let anyone who laughs at you stop you from doing what you fancy having a go at - I love your list!
All the best and a big ol'smile from a random blogging human ;) xxx
thank you! I just hope I can stick to my words and actually live life to the full
ReplyDeleteWell, you've got my support from afar!
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